"I don't need you and your brand new benz"

How would you feel if someone you were sleeping with (on occasion) had a baby with someone else...?
Then named that baby the same name as you...
With only one letter different. Sky-LER, not -LAR

I cannot decide if I want to laugh, cry, hide under my covers, or be cool with it.

Not that this should matter to me...
He is NOT my boyfriend, or friend.
Just "the friend" of the guy my friend was talking to.
Wing woman plus "the friend" turned into mushy, sexy, "never going to date him" blurriness.
This guy is not the right fit for me.
Especially now....with the -LER out and about.

I mean.. the sex is out of this world.
As Drake would say..."Best I've ever had"
Hands DOWN.
I am so attracted to him.

But WHY? He is one of thoseeee guys,
The tan, the tribal tattoos, the Mercedes Benz, the cockiness.
The guy that you think your entire family would most likely despise.

In the bedroom. Can't get enough.
The intimate moments that nobody else could understand...
Looking into each others eyes, the laughing, the candles, the music.

Outside of the bedroom.
Have only considered it once or twice.

This is such a strange situation.
Letting the bootycalls go is the best direction to take..
But why am I texting back?
Giving in to the drama...
Curiosity of what could be?
Do I unintentionally go for "Mr. Unavailable"?

Why do I get attached to every person I meet?
I am not an alcoholic, nor a drug addict.
I am an emotional woman.
Who loves emotional people, emotional situations, and tying emotional feelings to anything that breathes..
Even if it most likely means nothing to the other person.
Do I make things deeper than they truly are?
Shallow relationships turned into relationships written for the movies?
I am probably bored...
Being single is....strange.
I just need normal. Simple.

Listening to Coldplay makes me SO EMO!
Sleeping this off.
Goodnight beauties -sky-LAR...
(Yeah I still can't get over it...) <33