So... It's been a little less than two months since my last post. You might be wondering, well what and who has happened??
Well the guy from my earlier post "too juicy", came back into my life...yes the one that thought I was boring and immature. Ouch. Well he called me on my birthday...While I was feeling on top of the world covered in glitter and filled with vodka redbull. He decided to ruin it all with a dumb text, then a dumb phone call. I mean really? My birthday? So long story short I tried making it work and fell for the whole beautiful, tan, smart Santa Barbara construction worker bullshit again. Tried forcing something... And nope. Nope... Nope...just no. He was not into it. Even though he sure made it seem like it. I'm not sad about it anymore. But I really wanted it to happen. Don't you have that one guy that got away? I feel like I got closure this time though. I realized unlike last time that I'm not the problem. We just weren't right for eachother. We would look perfect in a cute little wedding photo booklet. But that's it.
Well that lasted two weeks... that seems to be the trend lately.
Because then there is...Ray. Yes that is the fake name I am sticking with for my blog. Ray only lasted about two weeks as well... Ray was a tiny bit younger, not my usual type. Skinnier build, sexy tattoos, cute smile, funny, a little swagger, just different then my norm. I really liked him! I mean I had my reservations about him. He didn't seem to have any sort of path, or clear idea of what he wanted in life (besides more tattoos). I mean, now thinking about it I didn't know much about him besides that he was fun, amazing in bed...and made me feel 16 again.
Well one drunk night he ignored me, I ignored him. A complete trainwreck of a night. Now we haven't talked for two days. Yes, it bothers me. Only because attention is the love of my life. I feel like I need to keep working on myself anyways. Too many boys that aren't men. And too many men that lack fun-loving boy-ish characteristics. Getting serious about the gym again, steering clear of doughnuts (which I ate five of the last 3 days). Moving into a room next month, being a grown up again. It's all uphill from here guys.
Thanks for tolerating my quick little rant. Talk to you soon, going to try my hardest to keep up on this. I also tried online dating sort of...for a day...I will leave that for another day. Yikes... Good night babes. -sky
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